be calm our minds and breathe

Flight patterns and dysfunctionalities
All regarding this hopeless search 
For a land of everything
Cast away from the mapped mind of being
Feathered by the outstanding seas of the grey
Always thought of to be immense,
Unparallel, undisclosed, untamed.
Now left with the hollows of
paper cups left unattended by the bedroom door
Stained permanently like the painted
Adorned shifting glasses from the window
And the ringing of the wind chimes from beyond
left echoes of soft lulls through the gaps of the sill
Tarnished golden metals sparkle
As the trapped rays of the harsh sun travel through
Taking time to sear its path with deliberate fashion
Greys start to collide
Such mannered gasps of leaps and excitements
And in confusion fountains
Made privy the hopeless attractions of the flightless bird
Such catastrophe made the casualites like an apostrophe
Turned the days of wonder to escalate into the blackness
And leave the desecrated tomb of your cries
Damaged, beaten, drugged and degraded.

She casts her net up high
Trying to ward of the clouds in the sky
Forced the smile out her eyes
Though struggling with the tryst

Salty waves clashed through
Her grave bones chilled too
As her hair, the wind blew
And to the stars it weaved to

Color her skin with dust
Diamond, sparkling, envied with lust
But her fingers grew old and rust
While she held on tight her cast 

You who feed most your life
Through stories of others in truth or lies
Take heed with precaution
Of the tolls of succession
In many ways pondering
If with what you choose comes a pounding

Tell them your secrets
And in turn their own you secreted
Miserable encounters becomes
The agonizing place you succumb
For in their wretched innocence transpire
Your hungry ghosts inquire

And in equal breaths you share
But in false sympathy they should be aware
For not in your words you digress
But in strained tone of your distress
Comes the truth of your presence
That you have nothing of essence

You who who feed us your lies
Would it be better if you had your prize?
Of counting us as your pawns
Our souls you put on as loans
To the devil you call your own
For the promises you cast on stone

Left burdened by your dark tales
Of misguided stormy hales
Of dreary insipid takes
Dramatizing every heart ache
And putting show of dripping skies
For sympathy of obvious tries

We who care to turn our heads
To heed our hearts which led
To our demise and death
For our oblivious leap of breath
And your insipid treachery
That left us all in such misery

Senseless inadequacy
Left me shaken, brittle and burned
In captured moments I have grasped
Each and every hurt

Through flames like you
I was beaten and bruised
Carrying the burden
Of such an angry youth

Evasive and astute
Were the tactics I used
But none of it worked
To put the fire out my soul

Planned and insignificant
Portions of life I cannot control
As my whole, skewered
Oblivion seemed the worst

In passing,
Plagued by your demons
Caught in blood ridden
Hearts that grew cold 

Incapacitated.
Flowing unendingly through conversations and speech
Going through the motions of uncertainty and reach
Where is your definition of tranquility
When there is nothing calm about your words

Words.
Curt and short
Like your stature when you last met your own demise
How your tall, confident limbs
Suddenly crushed and molten into a dice
Curled like a newborn in an unfamiliar world

Shunned
Torn away from your sanity
But perhaps torn away from your insanity
Broke free of your prison
Maybe dragged away from a home
Such was your state 

I was content with what I had
But you came along
And along came crumbling down
Everything I had
Then you left without a sound
Now everything is the same
But different somehow
I’m back to where I was
But I can’t be who I was
Now I don’t know
What I’m supposed to do
Should I write you a letter
And tell you all my fears?
I know you let go of everything
The moment you left
I should let go of you
The moment I left
But it all comes down to this
I am back to where I was
But I can’t go back
To the ME I was before 

In passing
Calm waves of emotions rise
Reverberating through every inch,
Every limb,
Every vein

Time consuming,
Time prolonging
Chasing the shadow bearing landscape
Quickly,
Catching through the endless clouds
Come away to the edge
And fly away to the ridge
As the proud rays come yonder
Pulling close to its bosoms
Bequeaths warmth echoed through,
In time with the heartbeat

And demons dare not be vanquished
By the pleasure of its presence 

Hidden intentions
Secret messages
Discreet glances

Hidden meanings
Secret meetings
Discreet kisses

Hidden feelings
Secret thoughts
Discreet touches 

Hidden moments
Secret dreams
Discreet embraces

Hidden story
Secret girl
Discreet love

All these things hidden,
Are these secrets worth keepin’

There was nothing left to say
What once were many words
I came to realize that
What everything meant for a change
Gather broken hearts to bid farewell
To winter’s warm embrace

Whatever might have been
Reaching out
To hold your hand and fly away

We are
Left alone in this darkness
We are
Left in sadness and in silence
But our song
Lingers on
Our song
Echoes to the hearts we left behind

Winter pass and summer falls
Still we linger on
Somewhere in this in between
Come out from the misery
Tidings bid our beds and
Tuck us in our memories

Dreaming what might have been
Hold my hand
And try to fly away

We are
Left alone in this darkness
We are
Left in sadness and in silence
But our song
Lingers on
Our song
Carries on
Our song
Echoes to those we left behind

There was nothing left to say
What once were many words
I came to realize that 

Note: my pathetic attempt to write a song

I have monsters under my bed
But the worst are those inside my head
And at night my eyes, they bled
From those nightmares I haven’t been woken

I have been pulled through from the dead
My memories from which they’re fed
Carving though my heart it led
Escaping through every word spoken

Now for every blood I shed
My whole being fled
And my voice choke instead
And my soul left broken

The time has come, I dread
Where all the things they said
Have come, conquer, and shred
The heart of all my innocence

On nightmares I have to tread
While all my strength are shed
Through my grasp and spread
And left nothing to me in its absence