March 2011
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Flight patterns and dysfunctionalities All regarding this hopeless search For a land of everything Cast away from the mapped mind of being Feathered by the outstanding seas of the grey Always thought of to be immense, Unparallel, undisclosed, untamed. Now left with the hollows of paper cups left unattended by the bedroom door Stained permanently like the painted Adorned shifting glasses from the...
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Lifeline
She casts her net up high Trying to ward of the clouds in the sky Forced the smile out her eyes Though struggling with the tryst
Salty waves clashed through Her grave bones chilled too As her hair, the wind blew And to the stars it weaved to
Color her skin with dust Diamond, sparkling, envied with lust But her fingers grew old and rust While she held on tight her cast
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precaution for lies
You who feed most your life Through stories of others in truth or lies Take heed with precaution Of the tolls of succession In many ways pondering If with what you choose comes a pounding
Tell them your secrets And in turn their own you secreted Miserable encounters becomes The agonizing place you succumb For in their wretched innocence transpire Your hungry ghosts inquire
And in equal breaths...
leave the past
live the present
see the future
close your eyes
heighten your senses
see with your heart
hear the heart of the wind
feel the warmth of the earth
be one with your soul
be the person that you want
be the change you want to see
be the best you can be
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seared
Senseless inadequacy Left me shaken, brittle and burned In captured moments I have grasped Each and every hurt
Through flames like you I was beaten and bruised Carrying the burden Of such an angry youth
Evasive and astute Were the tactics I used But none of it worked To put the fire out my soul
Planned and insignificant Portions of life I cannot control As my whole, skewered Oblivion seemed the...
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brush off
Incapacitated. Flowing unendingly through conversations and speech Going through the motions of uncertainty and reach Where is your definition of tranquility When there is nothing calm about your words
Words. Curt and short Like your stature when you last met your own demise How your tall, confident limbs Suddenly crushed and molten into a dice Curled like a newborn in an unfamiliar world
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I was content with what I had But you came along And along came crumbling down Everything I had Then you left without a sound Now everything is the same But different somehow I’m back to where I was But I can’t be who I was Now I don’t know What I’m supposed to do Should I write you a letter And tell you all my fears? I know you let go of everything The moment you left I...
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Chasing Daylights
In passing Calm waves of emotions rise Reverberating through every inch, Every limb, Every vein
Time consuming, Time prolonging Chasing the shadow bearing landscape Quickly, Catching through the endless clouds Come away to the edge And fly away to the ridge As the proud rays come yonder Pulling close to its bosoms Bequeaths warmth echoed through, In time with the heartbeat
And demons dare not be...
February 2011
37 posts
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Because I will always be the girl that no body knows about. The one he courts and no one knew, the one he pursued that no one cared. I will always be the secret girl that he’d hide from the rest.
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Hidden intentions Secret messages Discreet glances
Hidden meanings Secret meetings Discreet kisses
Hidden feelings Secret thoughts Discreet touches
Hidden moments Secret dreams Discreet embraces
Hidden story Secret girl Discreet love
All these things hidden, Are these secrets worth keepin’
I am content in this misery
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Unspoken
There was nothing left to say What once were many words I came to realize that What everything meant for a change Gather broken hearts to bid farewell To winter’s warm embrace
Whatever might have been Reaching out To hold your hand and fly away
We are Left alone in this darkness We are Left in sadness and in silence But our song Lingers on Our song Echoes to the hearts we left behind
...
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Once memory
A wrinkled cloth stared in the middle of the room. Reminding you of what happened the night before. You feel oh so cold, even if your skin was warm to the touch. Why? You asked, as you pull the covers of the bed closer to you, wrapping yourself of its warm sheets. A kiss. As all seemed to, it started with just a kiss. Now you remember how you saw him leave after kissing your forehead and...
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Monsters
I have monsters under my bed But the worst are those inside my head And at night my eyes, they bled From those nightmares I haven’t been woken
I have been pulled through from the dead My memories from which they’re fed Carving though my heart it led Escaping through every word spoken
Now for every blood I shed My whole being fled And my voice choke instead And my soul left broken
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Terrible. Terrible and perfect. And miserable,
Miserable and proud.
And there’s me.
And there’s you.
I’d probably be hungry with passion. With delusion. Yours. Your perfection.
My indecision.
My emotions, crying. Dying. Falling.
Failing.
Quitting.
Leaving.
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the moments they linger
the lights they flicker
our lives they falter
this night will get dimmer
your hand’s getting frozen
you’re knees getting weak and
you glance to me again and again
“dont worry i’ll be here till the night ends”
“these words that i say
will get stronger each day
i swear i wont go away
i dont care what price i have to pay”
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dust was all thats left
when i tried to search
when i tried to find
i knew you had it all well kept
so i knew it had to be around
i may even find it buried in the ground
so i dug through everywhere trying to find
the treasure you cherished
the treasure you kept
behind the door was a reminder to me
to look in the mirror and finally see
that the legacy you left was me
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Train stations
Lights blurred by the soft snow that dances around us. The light breeze touching us, caressing our cold faces
We ran, towards the end of the platform The sound of our feet in tune with our laughter
The night sky shine with us, The buildings, like a perfect backdrop to the stage
And you held me in your embrace Like perfect lovers in silver screen
The wind, it blows your scent to...
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close your eyes and try to see
the world you lost
the world you gave up
open your soul to the world and feel
the inspiration it gives you
the inspiration it lends you
open your mind and explore
the possibilities for happiness
the possibilities for pain
open your ears and try to hear
the laugh of the weak
and the cries of the strong
open your being to the world
make it wonder and...
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the conspiracy of minds
the conflict of thoughts
the indecency of plans
in every tick of the clock
a hand that was offered
was the hand that declined
to help a soul in limbo
to free the prisoner inside
the very flame that died out
was the smoke that went up
with the wishes of the evening
and the tears of the night
to look beyond what was said
to hear beyond what was written
is the...
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We are but seasons
I am like Winter, you’d never really love me, but you’ll get used to the idea of me, of loving me. And in time you’ll actually believe that idea. But the moment your eyes glance to Spring, even for just a split second. You’ll remember that I’m Winter and remember that you’d never loved me really. And you’ll run to Spring’s warm arms like you’d...
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Look back at this post in a year, look back at your moleskine in a year. What do you feel about everything that you’ve written? Everything you’ve been through?
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internal conflict
I haven’t written for a while. Being content in life makes me lose my writing prowess apparently. That’s the only thing I miss. Not the heartache, not the tears, not the sudden urge to smoke in the middle of the night. But the ability to write almost anything so instantly, so magnificently. I am back to being content. I am back to being stale. I am back to being the boring me. I need...
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31. Never sleep with someone crazier that you
Words to live by
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This is what you get for Being so close This is what you get for Hiding your proce Nothing gained And everything lost Soaked in the rain Putting everything at all cost This smile you paint on Couldn’t ever hide The ache that was never gone Now left on the side Nothing lost And everything gained Back to the norm You never seemed so strong
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30. I have places to go to, while you're stuck...
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There’s nothing left to do There’s nothing left to say Said I’ll win didn’t I? Have a good life anyway
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theater
The curtains open
the lights go dim
the actress comes in
the scene is grim
she cried, she yelled she died
cause her heart has been broken in half
she was holding a blade
and her sorrows start to fade
but what they didnt know
was she was the master of disguise
that she had these set of eyes
that would pierce through your lies
she hid her smile behind her tears
her laughs behind her...
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29. Nothing says victory than the biggest smile...
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28. Cry for the other person who can't seem to cry...
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Epitaph
Through the cracks of the wooden floor the light seep in like water. Golden and luminous they pool through the tiny splits of the old floor. But the darkness, it persists, weighing down so angrily, so coldly though the suffocating air. Pushing the light into hiding, into sweet escape. Demanding victory. Demanding and pushing and pushing and shoving. Belittling the light, not letting it escape from...
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27. It's hard to say the truth when all you want...
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I put you in a locket And put it in my pocket So we’ll never be apart But you’ll still be far from my heart
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26. I wanted to say that we should be friends like...
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I spit on your grave And let you die Remembering all those times you lied In agony and sorrow I let them cry I spit on your grave And there you lie
I spit on your grave And poison your mind And this time you weren’t so kind Letting them pass you in such a bind Killing their lives and making them blind I spit on your grave And torture their minds
I spit on your grave And put rest my soul...
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Slip
Counting days Counting nights Resting in between the lights Taking away what was written Just to be left and forgotten Far cry from what we had Farther still of what we wanted But still in this in between Holding hands is all we mean Time pass in such a blur From up above us everything occur As the world run in haste We’re left alone in waste Calling names and reaching arms Slipping through...
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25. If you think that you're playing a game and...
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Pretty much sums up what I feel right now
Sometimes I love ya Sometimes you make me blue Sometimes I feel good At times I feel used Lovin’ you darlin’ Makes me so confused
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Where do I go from here? Where will this journey end? Every single turn Leaves me to my death Would it be possible To die of a broken heart I won’t ever win this game No matter how I try I can’t help but go along Your wicked ways You lead me on this road That will only end in heartache Tell me where do I go from here Should I follow you Or go my separate way? I don’t want to be...
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24. I am a coward. But at the same time I'm not....
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23. I lied. I always lie. And when I was with you,...
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like love
Marianne: He said he liked me because I wasn't like her.
Martoni: Maybe that's why he couldn't love you
Marianne: Yeah, because I wasn't her.
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Actors need to internalize for their roles. They need to memorize their lines, be one with the character they play. I have. I did. And in the process, I forgot that I was just playing a character. I forgot that I’m not the person I was playing.
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after effects
Memorized words, actions, emotions. Sentences I ran in my mind countless times. Premeditated responses to premeditated questions. I said I will. But when I saw you, I never did. When I saw you, my words choked, my heart skipped, my stomach cramped and I suddenly had the urge to hurl. To thow up. Which I did, eventually, after that not-even-a-minute encounter with you. I can still feel the after...
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Scratches
I hold a pen in my hand, scratching ten thousand lines on my arm. Like a whole army, they stood together. Side by side, over on top of the other. Scratching lines falling down all over. Their magnitude burning the skin beneath all their weight. Scalding and burning. Blood running through the tiny cuts that have been camouflaged by their black inks. Hurt hiding through their maddening sight. In...
January 2011
79 posts
my prayer
a yes turned into a no
silence turned into screams
a prayer turned into answer
a cry turned into smile
no you dont have to frown
not anymore
whenever you feel down
just read this poem aloud
i am beautiful
i am appreciated
i am her princess
and he is my prince
this is not a fairytale
im bound to get hurt
but i know his love will not fail
nor with my heart he will flirt
its gonna...
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You left your own skin when you realized That nothing he said were true How can you even idealize That all he’d think about is you So you cried to the heavens above To ask for your forgiveness You should never have loved Such creature in the first place But the heavens they never heeded Or maybe they just never cared For you yourself never listened From their echoed beware And now...
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21. I think I can actually forgive you for running...
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20. Between being pathetically miserable and being...
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vehemence part 2
Your hope washed away by the waves Your soul carried by the angry wind And you realized you weren’t brave To face those who are sinned And his persistence turned negligence And the fowl world bellowed in laughter Now you doubt your existence And where you’d be after Better the darkness swallowed you whole Than see his heart stray from you Better have the world control Than seeing the...
